It was a slightly groggy Thursday, and just slightly raining. The sun was just slightly peaking through the clouds and I was slightly tired. If you have ever been slightly tired then you understand the slight clumsiness one can experience.
My roommate and I were fumbling around the local Thrift Store, Deseret Industries. Our quest was to find a table to place our make-shift television. I say ‘makeshift’ because our television is actually a very portable lap-top. It was currently resting on an upside down basket meant for a bike. The lap-top/television protested strongly against its metal wicker stand, so upon the lap-tops request, we were rummaging through the dusty knick-knacks of D.I. in an attempt to find a real stand for our makeshift entertainment machine.
First we found a beautiful, slightly imperfect, white toilet. The idea that a slightly imperfect toilet could be transformed into a stand for a makeshift television, to me, was genius. In my excitement I squealed and said, “It’s perfect! (Slightly) Nancy, this is it! This is the stand!” But to my disappointment she didn’t say anything. She just laughed loudly and scrunched up her noise like a rabbit and opened her eyes slightly wider. Giving the same kind of expression one gets when offering them food they are not craving, or that sounds utterly disgusting. Yet if you focused on her eyes you could see fear rapidly growing too. Maybe Nancy was afraid that a guest would come into our apartment, suddenly loose bowl control and rush to the nearest slightly imperfect toilet. Being that our makeshift television stand was once a slightly imperfect toilet, they would obviously use that toilet. In a mad, animal like rush, our uncomfortable guest would yank their paints down, throw the lap-top/television across the room and proceed to release whatever was once inside their digestive system onto the floor under the toilet. Understanding her fear of having to clean up the mess a toilet TV stand could very possibly make, I stopped longingly staring at the toilet and followed her to the couch section.
In the couch section, actually it was not really a section it was more of an area that all the couches have gathered, Nancy found a wonderfully comfortable recliner. I joined her on a recliner next to her and chatted about the slight clumsily and grogginess I was feeling at the moment. I believe that I was feeling this way on account of several things. One being the groggy look all these couches had. Every couch in the ‘Couch Gathering Area’ had only one thing in common, dust. They were all covered “I’m an abandoned couch” dust. It was as if a long time ago fifty or so people all sat on these couches daily, but then for some unexplained reason, they stopped coming and are now left to gather dust and look groggy. I sat pondering what a couch might be saying to one another as they wait for a new revival of couch sitters to come, when Nancy said, “Maybe there is something upstairs?”, so we got up and walked up the stairs to the clothing area of D.I.
The clothing section of D.I. is the most brilliant area of D.I. (except for the slightly imperfect toilet). There seems to be clothing from every generation, for every age and they were all once wore by someone else! I wondered how many lucky shirts, socks, ties or trousers are in one rack of clothing. There is even wedding dresses! A few of them looked like Jane Austin could have worn it and looked smashing. Nancy and I entertained ourselves with the endless Halloween costume possibilities for a while, absorbing the shear humor of some of the styles and colors. We were about to leave, giving up on finding our makeshift lap-top/TV stand, when I saw a package of underwear that had a sticker saying, “Slightly Imperfect”, this sticker struck out at me. This sticker was absolutely confusing. Did the sticker mean that the underwear was once used, but the person who used them never had over active bladder problem or mad rushes to slightly imperfect toilets? Or, did the sicker mean that a rich, silly person didn’t like the color of the underwear because it didn’t perfectly match their perfectly matching outfit, which was not bought at D.I. by the way. So the rich, silly person placed it in a large, black, garbage bag with other slightly imperfect items and sent them to D.I. never to be seen again.
That is when I realized that I related to the “Slightly Imperfect” bag of underwear. The underwear didn’t really do anything that could cause a terrible consequence of its dreaded fate of thrift shopping. Unlike the wedding dresses, the wedding dresses could have done terrible things to a wedding and all the blamed could be passed onto the dresses. The dresses were then punished to the thrift store to be sold for $15, only a fraction of what it was originally paid for. The dresses didn’t even have a sticker of warning, like the underwear, saying something like, “This Dress Will Destroy Your Wedding”. Actually, nothing in the entire D.I. store held any kind of warning except the bags of underwear. Warning you of their slight imperfection, like it’s clandestinely saying, “Slightly Imperfect, Not What You Want because It’s Not All Perfectly Imperfect”. Now the underwear is entirely out of place no matter where you try to sale it.
I realized that I have a “Slightly Imperfect” sticker too. I’ve done nothing dramatically terrible to be punished with my own tragedies. Yet I’m still suffering from them daily. Like the bag of underwear, I’m not complaining about my fate, I just hope for someone to come along feel pity on me and determine that they will properly use me. I need someone who would not disregard me because I don’t match or barely use me enough that I can still be placed back where I came from. I don’t want to be reconsidered over and over again, until there is nothing but left but the dust that has gathered on my underused heart. Yet, at the same time the very thought of being overused scares me back to my dusty submission.
I stood in front of these bags of underwear pondering my trivial imperfections for some time. Completely enthralled in my own trance of thoughts, mentally I wasn’t even in D.I. but in a slightly imperfect world of my own creation. Suddenly Nancy’s voice brought my attention back to reality.
“Amber... Amber... earth to Amber! Are we done here, or is their anything else you want to look at?”
I jumped in surprise; she had been trying to get my attention for some time now, so I stuttered in answering her.
“Hum... yeah... yeah... Well, can we get the toilet? I think that is our only option.”
I rubbed my eyes as if to change my perspective of the thrift store. My mind kept trying to pull me back to the underwear. I started to consider buying a bag, determined commit my self fully to the poor bag of panties. When Nancy asked, “Are you going to buy that underwear? You don’t know who has worn them and what they did in them. It’s like buying used lingerie!” A part of me shuddered at the thought of that, but at the same time I could almost hear the bags of underwear weeping, because of the comparison Nancy had made between an innocent bag of panties and lingerie. Lingerie was used for very personal, very sexually activities, using used lingerie would be like attending one of Shakespeare’s orgies but in clothing form. Obviously Nancy didn’t understand slight imperfection means the panties are virgins, unlike used lingerie. Nonetheless, here was this naive girl comparing slightly imperfect underwear to used lingerie! Too embarrassed to explain my obsession with the underwear and the mad reasoning I had to buy them, I nodded my head in agreement and walked away.
Nancy followed me; I assumed that she wanted to leave so I headed for the door. She trailed after me as we walked out of the D.I., I felt guilty for not buying the panties. I also still felt groggy, tired and clumsy, like had not fully woken up yet. As a result of that I accidentally smashed into a woman walking into the store, causing her to drop her purse and spill its contents. I hastily apologized and helped her gather her things, blushing with embarrassment the entire time. As she walked into the store I watched her do something that most people would normally laugh about. She quickly reached with her left hand behind her and tugged her underwear out of her butt crack, or more commonly know as ‘picking a wedgie’.
That is when I knew the “Slightly Imperfect” bags of underwear were meant for this woman. She might not have known it then, but as she was pushing open the door to the clothing section of D.I. she was destined to buy a bag of used underwear. This would happen after she remembered her own uncooperative underwear and would happily buy a perfectly imperfect bag of underwear. Fulfilling not only the woman’s needs but the underwear’s needs too. Secretly, I was listing to the weeping of the underwear slow to a stop as this woman made her way though the dusty racks of clothing, subconsciously drawn to the bags of Slightly Imperfect underpants.
Labels: and self discovery, Toilets, underwear, wedgies